same question, same answer
March 4, 2010
lately, i feel like people have been asking me this question a lot:
“hey man, so what are you up to lately?”
and lately, i feel like this has been my answer:
“oh you know, not much, just working, hanging out, nothing crazy”
(or some variant of that phrase)
anybody with me on this one?
deep down in my soul, i know know KNOW that there is something terribly wrong with this reply. but i don’t know what it is. that’s what everybody says to that question. well, most people. and i’m not gonna lie here, i feel like something in my life is probably missing. i feel like something in everybody’s life is probably missing, and i feel like we probably don’t know what it is as much as we FEEL what it is. i FEEL what it is when i hear certain songs. i feel what it is when the weather is just a certain way. i feel what it is when i am just a certain level of tired, or sad, or happy. i FEEL what it is when i see the ocean, or the mountains. but i just feel it. and it sure doesn’t change the way i answer that question.
this is our dilemma in life isn’t it?
everyone has the SPARK. i know this beyond any shadow of doubt. and when i say everyone, i mean everyone. tall, short, black, white, smart, stupid, mentally retarded, autistic, etc…
how do we turn it into a flame?
how do we change the answer to the question?
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March 7, 2010 at 3:53 pm
Yes. Totally know what you’re talking about. For six years I answered with the ‘oh you know, just working, eating, sleeping, etc’ when people asked what I’d been up to.
Now it’s ‘oh you know, just being a bum. See, I have no job – I’m just at home.’
But you know what? As much as it’s quite worrying not having a job, it was *more* worrying how my flame had been completely extinguished over the last two out of six years of my old job.
I let that happen.
I was driving home today from Manchester listening to Walk On by U2 and I was thinking along the same line as what you’re writing about – that ‘feeling’ when you hear that certain song or see the mountains or whatever. I actually questioned myself ‘what can I do that makes me have that ‘feeling’ like when I listen to this song?’ Man, that sounds so bloody muso. But, we *have* to find it.
Also, another song which has stayed with me ever since I saw U2 last Summer… ‘Stuck in a Moment’. Go listen to that song, right now.
This is a really long comment.. probably because your blog has made me really think.
March 11, 2010 at 3:11 pm
this is good Chris.. it’s something that i’ve been contemplating as well.. just the whole “what are we doing here?” question.. i mean, ultimately it’s the whole “love God, love people” answer but… there is so much in that..
i like amy’s response as well.. i’m going to go listen to that song right now